There's just something about the clean mountain air. It's restorative. I've been back from Brian Head for about two weeks now and am still ruminating over the changes that took place while I was there.
A few days before leaving I was asked if I would share some of my testimony while we were up there. I agreed. Putting my thoughts on paper for the first time in such a linear fashion was transformative. Most of all? I felt accepted. Truly accepted, even with all of my baggage. These people have become my second family over these past eight or so months, yet I still found myself holding back. Now I feel completely free for the first time in years. I wouldn't trade this feeling for the world.
At the same time, I feel discontent in the best way possible. It can be so easy to just ride the tides of life, it's something I've found myself doing more and more lately. I've let my passions slide by the wayside, using work as an excuse for my limbo. Getting away from everything really helped put things into perspective. I baked. I painted for the first time in months. I feel like myself again. I'm not sure where this is going to lead, but I am grateful for the journey.
A few days before leaving I was asked if I would share some of my testimony while we were up there. I agreed. Putting my thoughts on paper for the first time in such a linear fashion was transformative. Most of all? I felt accepted. Truly accepted, even with all of my baggage. These people have become my second family over these past eight or so months, yet I still found myself holding back. Now I feel completely free for the first time in years. I wouldn't trade this feeling for the world.
At the same time, I feel discontent in the best way possible. It can be so easy to just ride the tides of life, it's something I've found myself doing more and more lately. I've let my passions slide by the wayside, using work as an excuse for my limbo. Getting away from everything really helped put things into perspective. I baked. I painted for the first time in months. I feel like myself again. I'm not sure where this is going to lead, but I am grateful for the journey.
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What a wonderfully inspiring post. Glad to hear the mountain retreat revived you - it looks beautiful! This year I was feeling the need to make my passions more of a priority, too. It makes all the difference!
ReplyDeleteThank you! I loved it there, being in the desert I treasure any time I can escape to somewhere that has weather and green. I hope this year finds you with fueled passions as well!
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